I don’t have to be aggravated….

December 23, 2006 at 8:59 pm (Open)

So, at the moment I am trying to prepare a small documentary about the first half of the year here in Sevilla. Well let me tell you.. I think my computer has been smoking crack because it will not do anything that I want it to. Sometimes it will save my data and other times it will act like it is saving for about an hour and kinda freeze up( atleast once) and I just do not have the patience for that kinda stuff…I have felt like throwing my computer out on the street at times and anyone who knows me will tell you that I treat this thing like my baby… Why am I saying all this…not sure exactly, maybe Im just venting to those few souls who read my blog. I will tell you what I did do though. I went to Jesus and asked for peace and forgiveness for allowing this situation get me so aggravated. No matter what happens with this project, Jesus is still King and that FACT should be all that keeps me stable in any situation. I need to rest in this FACT that He is faithful and His Word is true and that I can learn how to rest in Him even when Im frustrated. I just saw something in this situation…How many times do we not do what Jesus is asking us to do(like the computer)? He keeps on telling us in his word to love, forgive, to pray, to study His word and to seek His face but we just end up getting carried away by our own desires or do those things just half hearted… looking like were crazy to Him… I know that He understands that were humans but just think about it…This is God, who is telling me something, not just some guy on the street…its God… All Mighty, all Powerful, all Loving, GOD….This needs to be my realization about everything…. That I need to honor God at all times…The scriptures speak of a God who is loving but desires that His people live a certain way in this world so that the world can see Him in us…Please Lord help me to live only for you…Thats my prayer at the moment and I would ask that you would pray that for me.. Thanks for letting me vent…

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New Member to the Family

December 20, 2006 at 7:08 pm (Open)

Well, this is to all you who are part of the Boby of Jesus… We just got a little bit bigger..Well, actually a lot bigger because my Brother is kinda huge. You see, last sunday Robert went to church with his wife and was convicted by the Holy Spirit which lead him to make a decision to accept Christ into his life. Thats what its all about… When someone becomes alive in Jesus and has recieved all that comes with being God’s child, it puts into perpective what life is really all about. My brother has a tough road ahead of him so please pray that God will protect him from the lies of Satan and that He would ensure him that his salvation is real. That he would have a hunger to grow in the knowledge of God’s word and that he would learn how to be a Holy Spirit filled person and not an indoctrinated filled person… There were so many times that I had told my brother about Jesus and he never really wanted to hear about Him and when I am 4500 miles away God shows me that He is always working on the hearts of those who need Him…Its was just unbelievable to here those word “I got saved” from my brother lips …Now my Dad…. Please pray that my Dad will surrender to Jesus….I sent him a long email just unloading the truth about Jesus and challenged him to read the book of John with me and we could talk about it together over the web; so I hope he replies soon..its been a couple of days..the funny thing was that I did not even have a hint of the idea in my mind about sharing Jesus with him(we have had many talks about Jesus) and for some reason it just happened… So my father is the next on the list so please pray for that as well….Thank you for reading and praying..

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Change

December 14, 2006 at 1:21 pm (Open)

Hola..Here are some thoughts that I had this week. First of all, my priorities need to change in order for me to be the most effective at learning spanish and experiencing the culture(Spain). I need to be more disicplined in my study habits(both scripture and spanish) and working out. The second thought was a picture of how Jesus wants to kill my pride or in other words me(Jesus said that in order the follow Him I need to take up my cross and deny myself). Its allowing defeat to enter mylife. At times its very easy for me to feel that my ideas our getting pushed aside by others or that my way of doing something is not right(even though my ideas may be as valid as others) but for me to feel disrespected or in better terms disregarded( Maybe Im just sensitive..who knows)… By embracing this defeat and making it a point too not prove that I am right(even though I may be or not) will eventually become my victory as I “allow” my pride to be put to death. Do this makes sense? If not sorry.. The third thing that I believe God is trying to tell me, is how I go about treating others… For example, do I cut other people off when they are talking or do I ignor someone when they are speaking or in the many other ways that I can be insensitive to others. So this was the thought… Would I treat Jesus this way? Would I not give complete attention to Jesus if He were talking to me or would I cut Him off if He were talking to someone else. Think about this.. and this may sound wierd, but in how I respond to women… Would I be a big flirt with Jesus?(We are supposed to treat others as He did and does)( I have my moments where I can be a big flirt with the ladies) I understand that as a man thats my tendency but I think that I can go a little over board at times. “I need to save all that flirtation for my wife so she can enjoy all my affection instead of giving it away like happy meal toys”. Why am I saying all this…This is my life, this is what I am going through, and these are the areas where Jesus wants me to work on so that I can become sanctified and set apart for His Kingdom(sacntification is a process and as His child my position never changes but there are levels of commitment to God and that commitment can determine How He will use me)… Derek Webb one of my favorite song writers xplained that one of the best things that could happen to Christians is if we “just exposed our sin” and “put it out on the five o clock news” instead of hiding it and trying to be perceieved as little perfect people. The scritures say, that we should confess our sins one to another so that we may be healed; So! this is my little confession of how I fail(not studying,prideful,not thinking how I really treat people at times)and some of the areas of my life that are lacking effort and discipline. So I hope that we all examine our lives and ask God to show us our faults or areas of improvement so we can call them what they are “sin”,”mistakes”,”disobeince”, “not doing the best thing” whatever you want to called just call it out and “CHANGE”.. Thats whats going on in my life a “CHANGE” or a “CHALLENGE” from God to “Give” it all up for Him.Will I succed “not on my own”. I need to be empty so only HE can fill me…I am happy in Life, Jesus is amazing everyday and treats me as a son and as a good Father He is loving in His discpline. My time here in Spain has been and still is one of the most exciting times of my life, thus far and I know that Jesus has many more great things for my life but because He loves me He doesnt want to leave me with all of these ruff edges and desires to shine me up like a flawless peice of silver where He can only see His reflection and that is where I know that I will be the happiest. Jesus Loves you and Died for you. He lived(FACT),died(FACT),Resurrected(FACT). ALL THIS FOR YOU.

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Hola de Sevilla

October 4, 2006 at 8:31 pm (Open)

Times of refreshment and transformation are slowing becoming the futures present as Jesus brings me through my own personal relizations of the need for change. As I look into the eyes of perfection I can only see my faults; which are everpresent before me and the need of reliqiushment is a hand. Placing all of my insuffiecientcies into the hands that can revive a broken spirit with just one spoken word; “Oh” how I long to hear that one spoken word from Him. I have realized that I have misplaced my true identity for one that has a weeker calling. A calling to selfishness, frustration and a continual comparision of who I am with others has been present in my life. I have tried to find my sufficientcy in who I am instead of who Jesus says that I am and that is one of the greatest mistakes one can make in life. This relization is a gift from God who desires and demands our freedom and who was willing to pay the ultimate sacrafice “Jesus” for it. This identity must flow from a life that is completely devoted to a developing this gift; a “Relationship with God” in order for one to realize this true identy; which can only be found when one lets go of himself and places his life into the Hands of an All Perfect Father who has a perfect plan.
Last sunday(Dec 3) I went to a church with my best spainsh friend Miquel and by God’s perfect timeing there was a guest speaker who happened to speak english; which was exactly what I needed(since for the past three months every message that I have heard was in spanish). He spoke on how the Holy Spirit is not just for the ministry part of my life but for every little intamite part of my life. He(HS) wants to help me and by that He desires to develop a relationship with me and guide me trhough every detail in my life. I also had the opportunity to meet an american missionary at that service who took his time to listen to some of my struggles and he expalined to me a forgotten truth “you need to know who you are in Christ” and that is where this restoration takes place. This week Johnie Moore(Campus Pastor of Liberty University) & Dr. Don Fanning(Missions director of Liberty University) have come to visit us and to see how we are doing(this is the first year of the missions internship) and to “I belive” to give us encouragement “people are praying for you guys” and direction
God has brought so many differnet people into my life who He has used as instruments for encouragemant and guidance while in Spain. You see, without ever leaveing the States I would never have known God’s provisional help on a worldwide basis. He is moving all over the world and has plans for everyone who has accepted Him and those to come.
I belive that leaving your own country and being thrusted into another culture where everyone speaks a different language, thinks differently than you and has different beliefes about who God really is; is one of the most difficult avenuse that one can take in life but I know that the rewards will far out weigh the difficulties. Without looking into the perfect mirror of Christ I would remain in my comfortably place of selfishness and complacancy. I am thankful for all the impurities that have come to the surface through this experience in Sevilla, becasue I know that God is gently disiplining me for the one distinct purpose of making me more like His Son; God focused and others oriented.

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